Sunday, 21 May 2017
Canada is the bully's friend. The bully beats the shit out of you, and his friend stands next to him, laughing, and when they walk away the friend turns around and says, Dude I'm so so so sorry about what just happened. That's Canada.
Fair comment. America swaggers around the schoolyard, elbowing little kids off the swings and taking their candy. We caper in the bully's wake, telling jokes, sympathizing with victims, but mostly happy not to be picked on ourselves. In the picture there, we're the guy with the backpack.
My question to the angry comic - and the world, for that matter - is: what would you have us do? We can't beat him up. (I'd use a gender-neutral pronoun but America seems so darn macho - a typical female bully would act different.) And we can't run and tell the teacher, because the bully won't do what she says.
There are a couple of other bullies on the playground. (They won't obey teacher either.) We try to make friends with them, but America lives next door to us so we'll probably walk home with him. And anyway the big bullies are more interested in each other than us.
Mostly we are trying to get through recess with clean pants and an unbloody nose.
Saturday, 29 April 2017
A random post occasioned by irrationality.
Whenever I react more strongly than the situation warrants – when my emotional landscape is, as it were, suddenly out of drawing – too much anger, sorrow, fear, shame, whatever -- I pause and try to work out why. Usually it turns out to be something from my past, something I am reminded of. I want to yell at the woman dithering in line ahead of me at the supermarket because I am mad at my little brother for displacing me in my mom’s affections. See? (This is a for instance, by the way. I love my brother. And the blethering change-purse fumbler ahead of me deserves a swift and terrible fate. There are people in a hurry, dammit!)
Speaking of anger, I was at the YMCA this afternoon. I love watching sports during a workout – no sound to distract me from the stair climber and a simple age-old story: winner, loser. I’m keenly aware that I’m doing my physical best while younger more talented performers on the pitch or field or ice or diamond are doing the same.
My Y has a pleasant urban ambience. Here a young dad urging his kids gently along the track. There a superfit striver on her 450th sit up. (Whoa! Could you slice deli meat on those abs?) A susurration of commentary all around.
(I would have used an actual photo here but everything I found was too distracting.)
And then – a half hour later during a commercial break, sweat dripping into my eyes -- I become aware of one particular conversation. It's been going on all along, without break or variety. I shoot a quick look over my shoulder. Am I overhearing a training session? Nope. It’s 2 old guys resting comfortably on adjacent machines, arms folded, legs crossed, chins wagging, shooting the breeze. Not a drop of sweat on either of them.
They’re not in my way. They’re not in anyone’s way. And yet for some reason they begin to bug me.
Is it a justice issue? This isn’t what the Y is for. Nope.
Is it envy? Gee I wish I had someone to talk to. Nope.
Is it disgust at flabbos who won’t even try to get on shape? Nowhere near.
Is it the language? Closer. That’s part of it.
Language and attitude?
There it is. Nothing to do with the Y at all. Listening to these 2 guys sneering at everything takes me right back to university, when I’d walk past coffee shops full of idle men passing judgment – usually of a crude and sexual nature -- on every female who walked by. Didn’t matter if it was afternoon, evening, or late at night, they’d be there, staring, with their espressos and smokes and sneers. Obviously there wasn’t much going on in downtown Toronto in 1980.
I had no idea what they were saying but my Portuguese girlfriend would get angry at being called a whore – loudly -- because she didn’t wear a kerchief and her skirt was short.
Bosch captures the effect pretty well.
This memory is from decades ago, but it comes back crystal clear, thanks to the guys behind me. An aural madeleine. I can practically smell the little cigars the geezers all used to smoke. I don’t think these 2 guys are saying anything dubious. There’s a lot of Portuguese spoken at the Y and they’d be in trouble for sexual harassment of any kind. Maybe they're sneering at Trump or Ronaldo – hey, maybe they're sharing feelings – but the dismissive tone and stance is spot on. The attitude is exactly the same: relaxed, superior, aggressive.
It’s the reason for my anger. And now that I see it, I’m not angry any more. Those rude old misogynists from my university days must be dead anyway. And serve them right, the bastards! (Hmm. Little anger remains, I guess.)
Gentrification causes problems of displacement. We know about the displaced poor. Has anyone given thought to the displaced geezers? Those monoglot coffee clubs of my youth are gone. Where do you go to kvetch now? There’s lots to criticize about today’s kids – they’re so fit, so happy, so damn tolerant. Got to hate them.
I guess you go to the Y.
Sunday, 19 March 2017
No no, this post is about my bike.
No, when I write bike I mean one of these.
Almost literally that kind of bike -- it's heavy and slow, with a coaster brake and no gears. I bought it on Kijiji last year. If it were red and a bit smaller, it would be the dead spit of my first 2 wheeler, the bike I learned to ride 50 years ago.
Toronto is a biking city. It has mediocre public transit and terrible traffic. And it's pretty flat. Three seasons out of four, a bike is by far the quickest way to get around. I remember having downtown appointments a half hour and maybe 5 miles apart. It was rush hour. The TTC was too far away. My boss offered taxi chits, but they would have been no good to me. The ONLY way to make both appointments was by bicycle.
So imagine my chagrin the other day when I found that my bike had been stolen from the rack. (Yes, it was locked.) Chagrin but not a lot of surprise. Thieves are all around. They have good tools. Gone in 60 seconds? More like Gone in 3 breaths. Lightweight, highly-geared, expensive bikes are prime targets, but even crappy ones like mine go.
Theft is the cost of doing business. Which I why I buy beaters. Even if I have to get one every year, I am still way ahead of the public transit user.
Next week I'll start trolling the internet and local bike shops for deals. For now, I'm back to public transit and shank's mare. And my aunt's car. There will be blenching...
Friday, 3 March 2017
I just finished a draft of a new book about Norbert, a smart-ass alien who comes to live in the nose of a small-town kid named Alan Dingwall. Norbert and Alan dominated my literary life for a few years in the late 90s and early 2000s. I wrote four books about them. Had some success and a lot of fun. And then put them aside. That was ten years ago.
A lot has happened in the last decade. Not in Toronto team sports -- we still haven't won a title -- but other things have happened in the world. Some good, some not so good. Some downright awful. On a personal level, I have written a bunch of books that don't feature Norbert or Alan.
I left them on Jupiter in the middle of an adventure. And, a few months ago, after umpty-thousand questions from fans about whether I would ever write another Norbert book and bring Alan home, I found myself without a deadline and decided - for no particular reason - to give it a try.
I don't write the same way I used to. Yes, my stories are still quirky with some darkness underneath, but I'm different. More gray hair, less certainty. Could I go back? Could I find Alan's voice again? I re-read parts of the old books to remind myself of the groove, and started in.
I finished last week. I had fun, which is an important part of writing. Will Tundra publish the new book? Wait and see.
OK, don't worry too much. I think I did most of what I set out to do. The story is called Boy To The World, and it's about Alan finishing his quest on the planet Jupiter and getting back to earth where - surprise, surprise - he comes up against a problem that requires him to use what he learnt on the faraway planet. The plot is full of action and goofiness, as usual. There is an upside-down castle. There are bird-fish and snake-women, vacuum hatches and a rocking horse who poops all the time. There are knights with punning names, and useless footnotes. Maybe the book is not as clever as earlier ones. (I may not be as clever myself.) But it might be wiser and simpler.
In writing, I learned that you can go home again -- not to stay, perhaps, but to visit. Your folks are frailer, and they've changed your bed for a pull-out couch. But the cabbage rolls taste great, the air smells springy, and you can still get a good night's sleep.
Sunday, 12 February 2017
Updates. I am still driving my aunt's car - badly. (Stalling, finding 6th gear instead of reverse, you know the kind of thing.) But honks and eye rolls are better than torches and pitchforks, so it could be worse.
Kids are fine. Work is, well, work. (I'm travelling now, trying to cram teaching and editing and creativity into a series of air bnbs.) Love life is at the intersection of Risible and Complicated. (A corner I know pretty well.) What else is new?
Apropos of car ownership, I had a great life lesson the other week. I haven't felt this proud to be Canadian in a long time. (That's why the picture, if you were wondering.)
I was in line at Service Ontario. Nothing to be proud of there. You know what it's like.
When I got to the head of the line, the clerk who was free held up a hand for me to wait. "Sorry, no English," he said. And gestured to the woman behind me. I stepped aside for her, and she and the guy proceeded in Cantonese or Mandarin (I guess). I checked: was I the only Anglo in line? Maybe. It took another few minutes for a clerk who spoke English to get free.
I've had to wait for a translator before, but I was always on another continent. This was a first inside my own country. I wasn't angry. Not even close. A little startled, I confess, aware that the joke was on me. We Canadians are proud of our (mostly) welcoming attitude to brave souls making a new life here. Waiting for someone who speaks your language must be a near-universal immigrant experience.
I am glad to have had a small taste of it.
Friday, 13 January 2017
So what is going on? Last week I wrote a blog in which I said I didn't really want my aunt's car. Not a sale pitch, just a passing comment. And I have received no less than six offers to buy it. (No more than six either. It was in fact six.)
Internet works on micro-rents. 600,000 people look at something, you make six cents. Is my blog regularly read by 600,000 people? Don't think so. 6000? More likely but still seems high. 600? 60? 16? Now we're getting close (16 of the coolest, most insightful, fun loving folks around, mind you! And Stephanie too.) In which case, almost half the people who read my blog made an unsolicited offer on my late aunt's car. Now that is target marketing.
I wonder why I had so much more success with my aunt's car than my own books?
Oh. That's why.
Thing is, I am feeling different about the car after another week of ownership. Sorry, y'all. I'm getting used to the thing. Couple days ago I visited a pal in Oakville at the last minute. Only one teeny crisis when I tried to find 6th gear and found 2nd by mistake. (I didn't know the tachometer went that high!) I'm off to the gym in a bit, and the only way I figure I won't die of exposure is if I take the car. (Of course I'm way more likely to die in an accident, but that's another story.) So the car is still there, but I am using it more and more.
Back to target marketing. Let's test this. Hey there, you wonderful sixteen (or 60 or 600,000). You guys are the best! I mean it! Give yourselves a hand! You too, Stephanie. Now, have you considered what might become of your loved ones if (God forbid!) something were to happen to you? It's a cold winter, and there are crazies on the road (I know!) and, well, anything can happen. Wouldn't you want to be prepared? I have some forms you might want to look at. Just a suggestion....
Saturday, 7 January 2017
So to my late aunt's car. (Not going to talk about my aunt this time. Later, maybe.) That's it up there - same model anyway. The machine is part of the estate. What to do about it?
I live downtown and so do my kids. None of us wants the trouble and expense of a car. My brother, out in Scarborough, has more cars than he can use and his kids don't drive.
Can we sell it? Here's where the thrift issue comes in. The car is a mid-price sedan with very low mileage. But it's ten years old and has some minor scrapes and dings. (Another reason my brother doesn't want it. Aunt Mary Lee didn't park as well as she used to towards the end.) A dealer would offer a few hundred dollars. I know it's worth ten times more. Someone who doesn't care about the way the car looks could enjoy it for another 300,00 kms.
I didn't have to think too long or hard to realize that the most thrifty answer was (sigh) for me to take the car. I don't mind dings and dents. Insurance will cost me about the same as car rentals. And I can make use of my (until now vacant) parking space.
The kicker is that I am not as good a driver as my late aunt was or my brother is. The car has a stick shift and a peppy engine.